red clouds

I see my
head in the clouds
so high and unattainable
dreaming in far away colours
off in the blue
sitting in the red
the world blurred
all around
I feel the biting heat
tearing on my skin

I turn the tunes
drown in the memories
they hold
waiting for the red clouds
to perish




Bitchin’ Thriftin’

After binging Stranger Things season 2 I’ve noticed a serious craving for some bitchin thrifting (11 might have a bit much influence on me). But in all seriousness that show is on it’s A game when you look at the attention to detail there’re paying to get all the clothes, the environment and references right. And it really pays off, it seems so authentic. And the part I truely love as much as Eleven’s bad ass hair do, it the authentic outfits the characters are wearing.
Therefore, I’ve been spending quite some time recently, roaming through forums and thrift stores.

Thrifted clothes are so special, because the entire premise is that they’re not brand new. In fact they’re worn, used and already have that personality on them.
I find that vintage clothing shows, not only to others but also yourself, who you are and defines your style.

Reading into that sustainability thing, that’s coming up more and more as an issue, thrifting is also an amazingly eco-conscious choice to make. You’re deciding to vote with your money to show, that you don’t want a new fast fashion jacket. Rather, I’d wear a thrift find I dug out in a tiny store and get all excited about it.

Where I live, I’ve found that it is a great little city for cheap thrifting, but not so great for exceptional thrifting.

So, being the former shopping addict I in some ways still am, I oftentimes, resort to the internet. There’s already a number of websites to sell and buy clothes C2C. I like to use those to find very specific pieces and roam around for some more expensive clothes and styles. My personal favourites are Kleiderkreisel (I live in Germany, where it’s quite established and has a bunch listings; there also is an american version – thrifted), depop and ebay.

Still, one of my favourite weekend activities is to search out some of the local thrift stores and dig through. Add some coffee with that and it is a perfect saturday to me.

Cosmetics Haulternative

Since switching to a completely plantbased diet about 6 months ago, naturally I’ve been replacing my cosmetics bit by bit as well for vegan, curelty free and more eco-friendly alternaives.
Here are some of the new products I’ve been using the past months and absolutely adore.

For starters if you’re looking for cruelty free skin care and want to cut down on the plastic packaging, Lush is always a good place to start.
Maybe consider switching out shower gel and shampoo plastic bottles for solid alternatives, which often will be cheaper in the long run, since you don’t pay for the packaging and it’s design. Of course, Lush does have great options for that and I would recommend to check them out, because they smell oh so amazing. If you don’t have a Lush near you, mostly, a simple bar of soap (check if it’s vegan) will do as well.

You can also get a completely recyclable bamboo toothbrush to switch out your plastic one. While on dental hygiene, I recently switched to the Sante B12 toothpaste, since usually the body can absorb B12 quite well this way.

Replacing your cosmetics with vegan, cruelty free alternatives is not only beneficial for the animals and environment, but also in most cases for yourself and your skin, since you’re cutting out products that usually heavily rely on mixing chemicals that you’re then lathering onto your skin.



red veins

I was born with a red dot inside the palm of my hand. It was merely a teeny spot when I was such as well – innocent and good
But ever since I was exposed to this world,
slowly tainted by its air and words and ways; the red freckle spread and grew its roots –  slowly spreading in my veins. I can feel the red crawling up my blood.
And it is slowly painting a maze onto my skin.

the bloodshed

In disbelieve these words had come from their orange lips, she held back emotions with painfully tightened fists. Born from a flat sigh, the words finally started to flow. There was nothing holding them back anymore. They needed to see the shade the nightmare had made her.

“Imagine being in a massive crowd of people, friends and family. Standing there, merrily chanting along the lines to song about the very thing you believe in; you stand for right there. You’re happy. You’re at peace. All of the sudden a shot in the laughter, singing turns into screaming – mayham. People restlessly running around in horror – back and forth. Nowhere to go. Like a murder of crows uncontrollably controlled by the 27 shots that followed. You look around, all you see is people. Sheer terror in their voices, confusion on their faces, despair and agony dripping from their drowning eyes. People everywhere. People screaming. People crying. People dying. All and everywhere is people, parted by the red rivers that flow.”

face behind mine

the face behind mine
I hid so well
I forgot the lines
and the shade of
the deepened eyes
the curve of
the covered lips
for when I stop to think
I am not sure
what my face
truely looks like
and so it is
ever changing

lifeless gift

You didn’t want to give me flowers
that would perish
as soon
as I placed them in my room
so you gave me a pretty plant
without telling me
how to care for it
and so, now
I am sitting in my room
looking at the lifeless
crisp leaves on the floor.
And I feel as though they were mine.


I did all those things
bended a thousand ways
almost too many to
stand up straight again
and only
so they’d like
the phantom I was creating
so they’d think
the mask I put on
was a pretty one
so they’d never see
the crackling lines
that were wandering down
from my eyes